I have been in counselling since my early twenties for depression and anger related issues. I have often found life pretty hard going at times. But when my dad, my idol, mentor, guide and best friend passed away three years ago I felt completely alone.
At the same time my daughters arrived, but I found I was building up suicidal thoughts. I was judging myself every day, all the time and it wasn’t until my second daughter arrived that I finally needed a diagnosis. I had to admit that the counselling was no longer enough and beg the doctors for medication so my life could begin to change.
I am now on medication and it is helping immensely. I rarely judge myself these days and have chosen to follow my own path, own up to my responsibilities and stop blaming others.
I used to feel the judgement of others. Like the confident business coach, best-selling author and public speaker everyone sees couldn’t be infallible or human like everyone else. People didn’t seem to understand that I was not just ‘a bit miserable’ or ‘sad’ but actually suffering from mental health issues.
I now rarely feel that judgement from others. I’ve been able to work on my personal development. I’m putting myself out there regardless of the consequences and learning to be happy with any judgement received. It has made me a stronger and more positive person. I stand up for myself now.
Listen to your gut as to how you are feeling and what you need. There are thousands of people out there all struggling in same ways as you.
Speak to someone who is feeling the same pain as you are. You are never alone.